you're no good at pretending

"swimming at night
we've finally hit ,hit..
we've finally hit bottom
swallowing promises back into our lungs
losing direction of our affections
alright"

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Wednesday, January 30, 2002 @ 01:22 p.m.

feel much better .tho my throat still kinda hurts.
dont you hate dreams where your playing soccer in your underwear.maybeyouve never had a dream like that but well.i did.and then you see people you know from primary school,sec and tertiary.and they see you in in a soccer jersey and underwear.right.anyways...looked into it.no harm.
im awake.but where are you.

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Wednesday, January 30, 2002 @ 12:33 a.m.

still cant deal with panadol. i feel so lame.my head feels like it weighs a ton.dont feel like going to work tomorrow .but i fear i might feel worst if i stayed home again..sigh.
need blue skies.need wind.i need time...space.......it would suck if i start into a britney spears song.
i want to break out of this.urgh.gawd i feel like shit.head weighs a ton head weighs a ton.head weighs a ton.
i need my daily dose of cursive now.sigh.
someone stepped on my sand writing.will you love me.

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Tuesday, January 29, 2002 @ 03:39 p.m.

im starting to feel again.and boy does it suck.

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Tuesday, January 29, 2002 @ 12:38 p.m.

well wouldnt you know.i have a bloody fever.guess the flu bug finally caught on to me.yesterday i puked green buti was fine til about like 4..when i started feeling reallly sick at work.ive slept all night.getting the weirdest dreams.

bus-dreaming of travelling by bus indicates progress toward your heart's desire

right.what is my desire.you dont want to fucking know.
got cursive's domestica from sham.oh its true it rocks better than the starving eyes album.
so im just gonna stay home.so leave me alone.

"and i brace myself for the coming weather.do we hide under fallen shelter and wrap ourselves in blankets of emotion? or do we stand under skies and dance ourselves in circles?"-2:54pm28thjan2001

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Monday, January 28, 2002 @ 12:27 p.m.

cant find my house keys.
been tryin to retrace my steps to where i put my keys when i got home saturday night.
woke up with a sore throat.not a good thing.maybe its fates way of telling me i shouldnt be doing what i am.
i love you i do.
yeah so i revamped.been tryin to revamp my webbie but i suck at frames and they dont work...so i screwed up.
im in love with the cursive song...cant you tell?
want to jam but cant get everybody together so that basically sucks big time.sigh.then theres the new project band.hmm maybe.
time to make a better me.

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Monday, January 28, 2002 @ 01:11 a.m.

stayed home all day lying in bed the whole afternoon.
after a whole week of activities,sunday is a day of rest i guess.
i am falling deeper and im afraid that im falling too fast and that i would hit the ground before you can get to me.and im choking and im choking on my own existence.

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Sunday, January 27, 2002 @ 07:47 p.m.

fairy tales tell tales-cursive

lets pretend we're not needy
lets pretend our hearts still beat
lets pretend we fall in love tonight
clumsy enough to fall for anything
we'll stumble on our words
we'll spill our guts on creaking bar stools
below the neon blue
low lives hiding in dives
theres no feeling drinking,sleeping with strangers
ghosts passing thru bedrooms unaware
a faint reflection on the barback's mirror
a face i never knew whispering
"please dont be a stranger to me
who are you if you are alone?"
you're no good at pretending
all my plays have tragic endings
you wish i was a fairy tale
this frog will never change into anything
just pretend that you're in love
that scolding sun is bound to comeup eventually
so is it that whispers in your ear?
a haunting voice blows in through the window
theres no feeling floating over beds
a needy,pleading apparation
crying "who am i if im alone?
i hardly exist at all
lets pretend that we dont need anything anymore from anyone
i dont want to feel anything anymore-lets just pretend"
we'll live happily ever after

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Sunday, January 27, 2002 @ 02:27 a.m.

had a blast.series 1.4 was fun.happy tp see the moderates play after having not seen them perform for awhile.our dear bassist is back from pinoyland.so that was cool.daniel has left the moderates.amir khan(amran) is standing in ,in the meantime.but their set was excellent.and they played my audition song.thats not the title ..the title is "hall" i think.when they were looking for a female vox for the duet for lovepit...i sang that for the so called audition.but then there werent any other girls so i got the part.heh.but i can take pride in the fact that i wrote my part in the bridge for love pit."and when i turn to you i feel...your kisses and every bite sends me to vertigo"..yeah....tried to sound so punk-ish but in an oh so lame porno way.hah.such a long time ago tho.
tears of despair and realize were rocking.altho i felt i was kinda suffocating already cos the room was steamy in a way.i stood behind the drums so i couldnt actually get good shots.
did anyone notice the the whole blue tee thing.like everyone "pakat" to wear blue.well almost tho.i wore a black tee...but with my blue hoodie.oh well.
got home kinda late.cos we went to sleven and i was hungry and felt it best to eat there instead of coming home to eat boring maggi.thank goodness my mom was asleep.
i do wonders by killing day with night.so why dont you just go away.

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Saturday, January 26, 2002 @ 01:12 p.m.

series 1.4.are you going?the moderates play today.as well as realize and tears of despair.hope it doesnt rain.just dont want it too.
im not sick.after the whole paranoia of the possibility that i could be..i am not.got myself checked out with blood tests and stuff...and so im not diabetic.
it runs in the family.my mom lost two siblings to it.now my uncle has it and my older aunt has lung failure.must be really hard for my mom since shes not there.and she hasnt really been for the past 23 years or so.
im sick.but youll never really know what of.
met wan after work and had dinner at subway.meatball subs rule.just hung around an itty bit .met pul.and then came stories of 15 minutes of fame.
bumped into old flames.wasnt that weird.what an egghead.
home home home home home.home is where the bed is.
maybe im found swamped in my selfishness nly to be chosen and not know the reason

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Friday, January 25, 2002 @ 12:42 a.m.

i think ive waited long enough...our words were once forget me nots.and now ill wait another year .i need you here.
worked.and it rained and rained all day.
met jo after work.got the new rockstarcoll poster from sham.whooppeeedoo. its fucken rad i tell you.
rain rain rain.....

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Thursday, January 24, 2002 @ 12:30 p.m.

some dreams are just a straight line.a line that is dreamt up in the sand.pick it up and just follow strings.and its just a straight ride.straight ride straight ride..
hugn out with the boys and anne yesterday.supposed to go to temasek..but was too late cos msc had played early.so we hung at bugis mac.our orders were taken and was served to us.converse has new chucks that are yummy enuff i need to buy.
met pul and i whooped his ass at tekken.
i lost five bucks and was pretty frustrated about it.but i am okay now.
but are you?
NEVER question other peoples happiness.

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Wednesday, January 23, 2002 @ 05:09 p.m.

at work,but not really working cos there isnt much to do really...
havent been doing much lately cept sitting infront of the computer at home playing freecell...like a million times.
i just got anew purple star belt.yes i did,yes sir.i love it.want to get the black one too tho.wish it were the stars and stripes brand tho, the same one that travis barker of blink 182 wears..but thats like forty fucking US buckeroonies.that is like the ultimate belt ever.kinda looks like what i haveon right now...but it has the star buckle.yummers.
gonna leave in an hour going to temasek poly to see my squared circle play.i finally got the lyrics and i can sing a long...yes i can!!wooohooooo.....
i miss you too,i do i do.
chirpee arent i.hardy har har hara hara jeans

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Tuesday, January 22, 2002 @ 01:52 p.m.

didnt work yesterday.cos well..puls birthday.gave him the watch.he likes it.he wears it on his wrist.we had fun.we watched amelie.oooh i love that movie and she's so cute.
met sab and wan(moods). had dinner.met wan and khalid.and we went to sleven .rock star coll. meeting.
home
why do you stay away from me?

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Monday, January 21, 2002 @ 01:19 a.m.

happy birthday pul!!!muaks.love ya.but you wont see this.so nvm
stayed home the whole day.ive been additcted to freecell.last night i spent two hours til about 5 plus just playing.i made 6 wins in a row a few days ago...so now im tryin for 7 wins.
been tryin to work on a new website.im bored with mine.so i used frames.a simple design.but its screwd up.gave me a headache so i stopped.i dont know whats wrong with the frames..cos they never turn up right.so fuck it.
im tired.mentally i am.i need time off.yeah ive got so much time.but with all the fucken time ive had ive spent it tryin to figure out what to do with my life.well...im sick of it.i dont want to think of anything.blergh.
return to fall on radio.whoopeedoo.
just reliased i have a hamster missing.i dont know whether it escaped or got eaten.so now i have 6 dwarfs.sigh.and i almost got another baby killed cos i put it in with the father and the father went straight at it and bit the ears.poor baby.sigh.
i need to live.

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Sunday, January 20, 2002 @ 02:08 a.m.

today was a blast.but im so fucken tired.
im slightly pissed right now....cos i wrote a few paragraphs and the whole fucken entry disappeared.urgh.
slept at six from uploading a ton of pics.but kept being awoken within a span of six hours.so iyou can imagin i was kinda cranky and all.plus there was no food at home and i wasnt in the mood for maggi.
instead of takin the train..which i dont really like.i took 3 blardy buses to novena.bad choice.bad route planning.i took 367 feeder service to the bus stop outside the interchange and took 66 to newton where i walked a little to another bus stop to take 54.what i shouldve done was take 185/989 to teck whye take 190 to scotts and take whatever bus there is to novena.wouldve been much faster.sigh.oh well.
got there to find i was the third perosn to arrive.and all i had was bingo burgers.
series 1.3.light of day was way cool.kinda funny cos they did a santana intro kind of thing and shareil played the bongos and he did the aerosmith thing of tying a scarf on the mic....which he said..."its fo rmy girlfriend".heh.no direction was good.i was all sweaty and standing on the milo tin tryin to take pictures...cos the kids were moshing.my squared circle was brilliantly awesome.love them so much.still dont have the lyrics so couldnt actually sing along.lutfi got a hair cut...just kept laffing cos its weird...its soo goody.heh.arash played for the last song.good set.
took a hell lot of photos.gonna take osme time to upload them once again.still gotta clear up the series 1.1 lot.
took solo rock star crew shots.kinda funny.didnt realise the time.cos wan showed me his watch and it was eleven.and my stomach was making grumbling noises.i was hungry.left the studio at about 11.30.got to sleven by midnight which was too late so i went home instead.how i wished i had bought food before going home.
im tired.im tired.but i hate to go to sleep at night.i hate to go to sleep at all.will you keep me alive.i feel like im drowning.will you keep my head up.

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Saturday, January 19, 2002 @ 04:57 a.m.

after spending much time.photos for series1.2 is up.go here
if pictures dont show up.keep refreshing your page.
i can go sleep now.

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Saturday, January 19, 2002 @ 12:16 a.m.

wooowwwwweeee..
worked little.im bored,cant you tell?
went to lido to check out the watch im gonna get pul.and i acame across one that i would want for myself.heh.met wan and jo and djohan and thomas and joe and a shaihidil.had dinner.
walked a hell lot.window shopping.whoopeedoo.realised im so into purple...yet i have to purple teeshirts.thats gonna be on my list of clothes to buy for this year.got the hamster food.my hammies are hungry.
met boy and hafiz.splitsville.and went to meet pul.he had too much coffee to drink.heh.
im home.and im tryin to ringer tees for tomorrow.since they sed it was gonna be ringer tee day.decided im gonna wear my green ringer with green shoes...ill be a little leprechaun tomorrow.cept im not little.heh.thought of my red strawberry shortcake ringer buti always feel kinda weird wearing it...cos the collar is weird.i have red sneakers to go with it..but i havent worn those red sneakers in like 5 years or so.so they look kinda funny.yes im color coded.and i like it that way.im just so hyper today.feel the smilies.and i wonder why.but who the fuck cares...im happy!!!woohooooooooooo.
its gonna be a good day later.series 1.3!!!!

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Friday, January 18, 2002 @ 02:47 p.m.

things people do when you're bored and have a camera in hand.
januaryseven

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Friday, January 18, 2002 @ 01:59 p.m.

i have to say that sitting down ,slacking and just talking is one of the finer things in life.got that from dyn
hope kyn will be okay.
im just contented with just sitting at some coffeeshop or wherever and just havin conversation.i think thats sweet.who's with me?
i guess i have problems in my head that im tryin to run away from...cos i had another one of those dreams where im tryin to run away.this time i was being run after by some psychotic girl.and somehow i had some kind of powers to clone myself...but not really clone myself...i can make a hologram...to make her think im standing there when im not.
other than that i hate my pillow.

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Thursday, January 17, 2002 @ 11:51 p.m.

cold cold weather .i like.but not good when the bus you're in is way colder than usual.froze my butt off.
worked.yeah i did.
met pul at night.hung out.the usual stuff.thinking of punkrock type jobs i could do.hmv wouldve been nice but some ex is there.tower wouldve been nice too...but that ex is there.kino would be ok if not for the drabby uniform.borders would be way cool but manager mike is still around.i think im getting bored with the service line.5 years of facing some ungrateful people is enuff.blergh.wish i could drive.
uploading pics right now.yeah.rock star collective pics.too too many of them from series 1.1 and 1.2.will try to get them all up soon,kay?
walked thru my door and the smell of uncleaned hamster cages hits me and i remember...damn ...forgot to buy hamster food.double damn...forgot to buy shampoo.
sigh. puls birthday is on monday.whooppeedoo...he be 23.odd isnt it.
my dear bassist is now in philippines for some asean games thingie.soccer boy.no wonder he aint been pickin up my calls.
anyone caught whose line last night???it was hilarious.
alright.

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Thursday, January 17, 2002 @ 01:27 p.m.

its funny how...
damn it trailed off.
i feel so blardy itred.even though i slept earlier than usual last night.and damn i cant remember the dream i had.
worked a litle last night.had dinner with sham anne wan markpeishan jill steph shairy.bleeeeeeeeee
home.
with every waking day that passes by, i feel you walking further away from me.
hope today will be a better day.

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Wednesday, January 16, 2002 @ 02:57 p.m.

my moms old camera is a minolta 16MG-S.to see how cute it is go here

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Wednesday, January 16, 2002 @ 02:30 p.m.

dreamt i was back in art school.graduation show was held outdoor at night.so danged freaky.i dont remember seeing my work but i saw the others.
lightnin struck and we're all running.and its a rainstorm.and im running.and running.and i fall into another weird scenario.
some theme park of star wars or something.some kungfu star wars kinda of thing.whatever.it was a dream.pul kept flingng me around so i could do high flying kicks.i know its so fucken weird.
but then ...im just a weirdo.

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Wednesday, January 16, 2002 @ 01:59 a.m.

im like so in love with the cursive album burst and bloom.just grows on you.and it sjust seems to get better everytimei listen to it.sounds weird dont it?
worked little.played hard.
met jo and wan and pul and shain .
took on the tekken challenge.but the machine i guess...is kinda screwed.here's the plan.one day...the challenge.10 dollars worth of tokens.on tekken...on whatever game.just ten bucks on the arcade.that's be awesome.
i m startin to feel kinda sick actually.kick the habit i say.i should.wont you kick me?
found my moms old camera.its a minolta.kinda looks like a spy camera cos its small.it uses like 16 mm film.she bought it like in the late 60s...i hope its repairable.and i hope it wont cost that much.i hope i hope i hope.

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Wednesday, January 16, 2002 @ 01:49 a.m.

You are a free, elegant spirit with a rebellious side, you Janis Joplin you!

Test made by morphina
Take the ' which dead rockstar ' are you, test, here!

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Tuesday, January 15, 2002 @ 01:00 p.m.

ease it up a little.
okay so i guess jenn is someone who just visits.
felt crappy.didnt go to work yesterday.was about to...til jo and wan were sort of like mind adbucting me..and tellin me to meet them.which i did.at spinellis.bumped into amran cowan pul and adeq too.u can get rtf cds at hmv now!
all splits.
went to kino and to borders which left us trio.
i was compared to element 101.wan bought the cd.wahlan.element 101 abit strange right???
hung at lido.great funny punch lines.heh.
i was right.i am not crazy.i was so fuckin right.i am not crazy!!!!!im not stupid.im just smarter than you.i was so fucken right.
ive got closure.what have you?

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Monday, January 14, 2002 @ 12:44 a.m.

who is jenn?do i know you?
HUNG OUT WITH PUL TODAY.does that ease everything else?i am fine.thanks for caring.
my title at whooper was taken away.i am now a whoopee.pul whooped my ass at tekken.and i spent 6 bucks on tokens.and it was all used on the game that i lost.dang.my title is gone.but i still have a list of people's asses i whooped.heh.i still have my fooseball title.i want a fooseball table!!!!
hung at taka for an itty bitty while before we started walking.wanted to go to the arcade at taka to play that medievel game thingie.(flashback....my birthday 2000.i played that game and whooped puls ass.i was a knight with a huge sword and just kept swiping at him)so we wanted to play that...since he was feeling all confident he could beat me.but then the arcade is gone.heh.
sat at istana and just witnessed highsecurity.
does it make you happy that i am still here?
a new week ahead.im so tired.i miss staying home all day.i havent revamped my website.im so sick of it.
it was sean astin in lord of the rings.how could you forget that face??goonies boy has grown up....too bad hes chubby.

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Sunday, January 13, 2002 @ 01:41 a.m.

been the hardest day.a day to start early.but didnt happen.i was microwaving some food.was gonna check on it when i heard weird noises in the kitchen...like water gushing...which is what the washing machine usually sounded like.but i got to the kitchen and saw water gushing out from under the sink.and it was moving fast.panicked like fuck and called my dad to get back home.within 5 minutes the whole kitchen was flooded.flooded.flooded.whatever was on the floor was floating.damn.started making a towel barricade thingie so the water wouldnt get to the dining room.too late.by the time my dad got back home...the water had reached the living room.yes.ha.it was fucked.my dad managed to shut off the water supply.so basically my whole afternoon was spent scooping up water and mopping.i mopped like never before.thats just it.never before did i mop.well ..yeah ive mopped before...just not in ten years i guess.hah.
discovered that if there was to be a short circuit in the house...the electricity automatically shuts down.aint that the coolest thing??so i only finally got out of the house at 5 plus.had to wiat for the danged plumber.
so i missed yms.
series 1.2 was okay.i dont think it was as packed as last week.i figure most of them went to the one at yms.took pics and stuff.had fun.
feeling productive.think i might just go upload those pics now.

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Saturday, January 12, 2002 @ 01:24 a.m.

im so bored.
ethan won .woohoo
worked.blergh.busy
leos home..woohooo
met wan and jo after work.then jo left.and then went window shopping.which i havent in a long time.
went to the arcade and whooped your ass,didnt i??heheh.aaawww.*hugs* anyway.it was fun fun fun fun fun.
home i am home.
bored i am bored.
tomorrows gonna be a long long day.
i so have got to stop the habit.

love love love.spread the love.

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Friday, January 11, 2002 @ 01:12 p.m.

you think u know.but u have no idea.
for anyone who has asked.im fine.im just crazy thats all.hah.
worked.and had bingo burgers.
i had a splinter on the sole of my right foot.stupid me cut it off accidentally leaving the other half still in my foot.i have no idea if it is still in there...cos its the tiniest of splints.but anyhow..i cut the skin around where i think it is.so now my foot has a cut.and its the usual pain..but with an irritating itch.gawd.blergh.
seeking the comfort in you.

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Thursday, January 10, 2002 @ 01:02 p.m.

i didnt go to work yesterday for certain reasons.one of them was that i just typically didnt feel like it.went to town tho,met wan.went to fossil to get my watch fixed.tho they couldnt do it there and then so id have to wait for a few days to about a week or two.so im watchless and i find that highly annoying.i have other watches...but id think their batteries are all flat too.
we met sham and anne at scotts and had pasta.we then took a walk down.and ended up at adelfi's rocky master...which i assumed sold ice cream..but didnt.but we sat there the whole time and hung out.and had fun.
ended up at borders.as usual.was at the sex section and sham went on reading "the fine art of erotic talk"..or something like that.with all the fucken cheesy lines...none of which i can really fucken remember."i have come home".
bumped into you.after a whole week of disappearing acts you had to appear today.part of me is so fucken angry .part of me just heaved a sigh of relief.
why cant it just rain .

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Tuesday, January 8, 2002 @ 10:30 p.m.

this is the earliest ive been home since the year started....or rather the earliest since christmas eve.im home.bored.back hurts for a reason i will explain later.today is a week.a week in the new year.bleh i m babbling so ignore me.
monday .yesterday.i worked.im too lazy to work now.im even lazier to chose what clothes to wear...so ive been apparently wearing the same stuff over and over again.sigh.
anyhow...met wan and jo at spinellis.where we walked back to taka so i could check out the web design courses at informatics.then we met john.johns car part 2.emo drive i guess.we were singing out loud to get up kids.and its like we were harmonising.cos we didnt sing exactly the way the song was.we could do an acapella.drove down to victoria food court.such a nice windy night.sham came down and joined us.
then we took another drive down near to the merlion...where once again...we were singing out loud to the get up kids.hung around near the river.talking and taking jumping shots.this is why my back aches.cos i was so keen on taking jumping shots of wan and jo...then sham sed we should all jump.i so suck at jumping.i was always out of timing.but it was fun.laughed so much...it was painful.the most fun ive had so far.
so after all the jumping i was like whining and lying down....cos it hadnt been an hour enough for my dinner to digest...so i felt nauseus and all and my back hurt.

the rhyme scheme-cursive
Words have no feeling without loaded meanings
Words take too long to come across
Meanings are meant for defining defintions
We load them for efect, it's cheap but it's working

It's the best I've got to get your attention
I could never get your attention
I could never please you
The verses are wasted on words you won't relate to
On words you'll never hear

It's not working -- I don't feel any better
I don't feel so well
The verbal breakdown has failed
So I'm whispering secrets
Hush, hush, on the loudspeaker
Words sculpted on verse become absurd

But it's the best I've got to get your attention
I could never get your attention
I could never please you
Words so sympathetic --
symphonic, yet pathetic -- are
tossed on to the song

The meaning is lost...
The meaning is lost...
Words... just... won't... work...
Words... are... slowly demeaning their meanings
Words... make... things... worse
Words... are... always repeating
Losing their meaning
These words failed
Words fail

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Sunday, January 6, 2002 @ 04:00 p.m.

sundays are usually microwave meal days for me.but theres no more maggie..or microwavable food.
i saw a pot of pasta on the table.wooohoooo.but then....there was no pasta sauce to be found.urgh.think my mom forgot to leave some.

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Sunday, January 6, 2002 @ 03:23 p.m.

so i kinda managed to fix this damn thing.but i know theres errors here and there.
the week has been a 50-50.well actually more like a 60-40.60 being bad.i wont go into detail tho.
new years eve at NYE was kinda cool.danced to bushmen.but got bored towards the morning. and i had bad gastric pains and ended up lying on the beach.left the island at around six.the sun had risen and the sky was beautiful colour of pink and blue.
in the afternoon david blaine was on axn and it rocked.
in the evening all hell broke lose but i spent it with jo.just hung around talking.im glad to have been there.
wednesday had me up in the morning listenin to rtf on the radio.dont know why i woke up...cosi usually dont.but i did.so what.
went to work anyhow.and in the evening met wan and amran and drove down to geylang for dinner and had my damn pains again.ended up at sleven.but that was short.
thursday i worked late.met the boys in the evening.it was a night i didnt want to go home.but i had to reason to be out so i just stayed out only to be ready to get a cab ride home.hung wih jo and djohan.at ard midnight we met sham and john chiong.and just like in the silent drive...it seemed like so.
im just rambling and you have no idea what im saying.so nvm...
for the times i loved staying home.right now i dont.cos being home meant alone time.i dont particularly like bus rides now too....cos it meant i had to think.which is what i dont want.so ive been taking cabs and rides.thanks.
friday i didnt want to go to work.met up with wan and we just hung out at taka and then amran met us and we went to pick sham up and we went for a drive.ende dup at novena squares black tea box.pure mango vanilla rocks.
saturday.went for the gig at 4word with wan.too early so we went back to black tea box for the drink that rocks.sadly ive picked up the habit of ciggies again.
the gig was awesome.it was hot and some people actually litterally brought the house down.unvisual and ps were awesome.took pics...til my batt died.
the aftershow was funny cos we just sat around...and the boys fixed the place and cleaned up.it was late.and i was hungry.so wan and i took a cab down to sleven so i could eat and just get home fast.everyone else came but i had to leave.
for the people who had contagious laughter and smiles that caught on to me.thanks.

by the way.the new cursive burst and bloom so fucken rocks my socks off.

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Friday, January 4, 2002 @ 01:40 p.m.

pitas is being such a pain.thats why all this doesnt look right.
it somehow sums up my life for the past four days of the new year now.just messed up.
i have 9 hamsters now.one baby got killed by the father yesterday i still have that image tainted in my mind.the baby was still okay and alive when i took it out.but it was all bloody.but when i woke up it was dead.rip.the little one.the battle lost.
uve always been there.ive come this far cos of you.you and you and you and you.

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Wednesday, January 2, 2002 @ 01:29 p.m.

i have a whole lot to say but i wont
just hope close buddies will be okay.
i dont wanna carry emotional baggages that ought to be left for the garbage truck.so im going thru the trash to see if ive thrown anything worth keeping,accidentally.
i have a picture.not a big one.ive kept it pocket sized.
im not really gonna bother...altho im gonna try hard not to.

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